The last post. That post is actually the reasoning behind this post. I have been open about coming to terms with being bisexual and finding out my sexual orientation after my family telling me bisexuality is wrong my entire life. What I haven’t been as open about is my struggle in whether or not I am gay. I have actually barely talked about this, but I feel I should. I have known for a long time that I was attracted to women, and men. However, now that I am getting older, I feel more and more that I lean towards gay rather than bisexual. The person who posted the last post titled “Untitled”, decided yesterday that me and another coworker would make a cute couple. The guy is very sweet however, I am not attracted to him in anyway more than friends.
This, this is the reason I am choosing to stay single instead of get into a relationship. I know how hard it is to be told someone doesn’t like me, especially when I don’t particularly like myself either. I can not handle being shot down and hurt repeatedly, so now dating is my way to protect myself.Thinking about dating was the cause of this post, am I bisexual or gay? Who am I attracted to? Who am I not attracted to? Who am I?? I never thought I would end up in this position, a position where I do not even understand who I am attracted to.
I want to kiss a girl.
I want to cuddle with a girl.
I want to love a girl.