What happened to you is not your fault. You did not ask for this to happen and you never did anything to deserve it. You were just a child and there was nothing you could have done to change what had happened. I know it hurts and I know some days it truly still doesn’t make sense. I know some days you still want an answer even though you understand that you will never actually get one. I know its not fair. I know you would like nothing more than to run away from what happened and never come back. I know there are so many days you wish you didn’t have to keep fighting a battle you feel like you are losing. I know it hurts, and its confusing, and its far from fair. But you are so strong and you can keep fighting this. Someday you will fall in love with someone and all of the pain you feel every day will be just a little dot that you will remember is there, but will not effect you. Someday you will smile because you know what happiness actually feels like and you will be able to smile in a picture without faking every single second. Things will get better, and I know you may not see that now, but it will come. Someday you will no longer have anxiety and you will truly be able to breathe again. What happened to you may never make sense, but it doesn’t need to. You just have to come to terms with yourself, and love yourself more than you have ever been loved. YOU DESERVE LOVE.